Thursday, 1 March 2012

Photo-Heart Connection

Processed using texture from Pixel Dust Photo Art

OK, so I'm going to come right out and say this is not the picture I wanted to pick.  I mean, I know that it's kind of against the spirit of photo-heart connection to start off with exclusions in mind.  But I did and this is not the one I wanted it to be. 


The reason I did not want it to be this picture is that this photo is (and feels like) the most personal picture I've ever taken.  It has provoked an emotional response in me that I haven't experienced before through my photography.  This may be further magnified by the fact that it is of me and therefore so obviously personal.  I'm not sure I can give a very precise definition but the feeling I get from it is raw, a bit uncomfortable, unsettling.   But, and it is a big but, the fact that is has evoked such an emotional response feels like a  bit of a breakthrough in my photography.

I'm not claiming to have taken a great photo here.  It didn't really turn out as I expected or planned.  Yet I can't get away from the 'heart' aspect.  There is in this photo a little piece of  heart that you can 'see' in some form or other, that speaks louder than just being a nice picture with some funky texture added (or whatever).   I want all my photos to have this magic ingredient that evokes some feeling (however indefinable) and that touches my heart in the same way that this one does. 

I ended up choosing this picture because it has given me a little glimpse of the possibilities.  How much more is possible when you lay a little more out there, give a little piece of yourself and really make a photo your own. 



This photo was taken for in the picture, a year long journey in self portraiture.
You can read about my first two months adventures in it here and here.






 

21 comments:

  1. this pic touched my heart too
    makes me want to respond, saying: be gentle with yourself
    i think this is an awesome image
    i understand what you are saying about the 'magic' ingredient, i am searching for it too (like the holy grail lol)
    i did susannah conway's unravelling #1 and know how hard it is to reveal yourself in your photographs and also how rewarding when you dare to do it
    i think you are very courageous
    thank you
    ps when browsing my february photos my first impulse was to pick one of the selfies i did for unravelling, but i chickened out
    maybe next month...thanks to you!

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  2. I love how brave you are to post such a personal image. I have a hard time taking images of myself but that's something I want to overcome. I feel the emotion in the photo and glad the photo-heart connection project gave you the opportunity to express this side of yourself.

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  3. Becs - I too think you are so very brave for choosing the image that spoke to you so strongly, even if the feelings it evoked are uncomfortable ones. To me this image is amazingly beautiful and wistful and a little sad - but hopeful at the same time. Because I feel you will "let go" of those things that may be holding you back - just open your fingers and let them go. To me, this image and your words are the very essence of Kat's purpose behind the Photo-Heart Connection.

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  4. I loved this image too when I saw it in {in the picture}. I think that it is fantastic that it's provoked such a response in you & a way to see the possibilities of the emotional connections that you can have in the photos that you take.

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  5. this event sounds like there might have been some doors closed while others open thank you for sharing this pic that is so personal to you.

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  6. This image is so authentic that it touches our hearts as well as yours. I liked it so much the first time I saw it. Yes, you are stepping out and revealing yourself -- that takes guts! Congratulations!

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  7. Becs, I agree with what others have said. I was touched when I first saw it in {in the picture} too. I think the reason is that it is so clearly deeply personal. It's a very tender photo. You really have honored us by putting yourself out here. Thank you!

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  8. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and this photo, Becs. You are encouraging me to do the same.

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  9. This picture is powerful, your words even more so. I have chills. "How much more is possible when you lay a little more out there, give a little piece of yourself and really make a photo your own." That is so true, when you put yourself out there in this way, make yourself vulnerable, you put your stamp on it in a way that you otherwise couldn't. A powerful Photo-Heart Connection, showing that we can't always lead with our heads. Your head didn't want to choose this image, your heart did.

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  10. your honesty is beautiful here becs. and to feel as though you have made a breakthrough in your photography...it's a whole new world out there for you. :)

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  11. I'm so moved by the comments here, thank you all so much. And thank you Kat, for introducing this platform to share these connections. I learn so much from all the photo-heart connection entries that I visit and I can't wait to share in them all.

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  12. I love that you dared to choose this, even when you didn't want to. As if you were compelled to do so. That speaks loudly-enough to hear. Putting oneself "out there" is scary-and can be enormously rewarding. And I bet it will be.

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  13. Oh Becs.. wow. love this one and I can really feel the heart in it. Good for you for putting yourself out there on this one. Bravo!

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  14. Sometimes it is the heart that overpowers our head...brave brave you for allowing your heart to truly choose the photo this month. Bravo! I love the photo!

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  15. What strikes me about this photo is the contrast between your sort of "normal" attire and the whimsical quality of the balloon's message. Wishing you the best with your "possibilities."

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  16. Of all the images I looked at from {in the picture} this month, yours has been the one that stuck in my mind! I think because I knew you shared with us not only a photo of yourself, but you shared your intermost thoughts and feelings! This is a very beautiful and powerful image!! You words here are so touching!

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  17. Thank you for sharing this; how amazing the heart can be when thinking and looking at connections! Such an amazing feat being able to put yourself out there in this way. Beautiful. :)

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  18. Wow, your words touch me so as does your photo. The mystery, the personal meaning, the fact that you did not want to choose this photo but it chose you. . . all pull at my heart.

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  19. This is definitely a connecting Heart and soul photograph. Love it! How brave of you to send it in the world...

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  20. i was really touched by this! i know you have struggled with selfies, you choose a great one with such meaning and depth.
    bravo my friend. bravo.
    xo tracie

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  21. I also think it is brave. Love your reminder to let go. I must practice this today.

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