Wednesday, 6 January 2016
This post started out as a different post completely. I started last year with the word balance as my word for the year. And, to be blunt, I made a complete hash of it. I won't go in to the hows and whys here but it feels very much like a fail.
My word for this year started out as...balance. I felt that as I hadn't achieved it and it was still very much needed, I had to have a redo. But then I started reading other people's post about their word for the year. Posts filled with expectation, joy, anticipation. And all I felt was flat with a slight sense of dread - like I was resitting an exam I still hadn't studied for.
So I have abandoned balance and shifted perspective a little. And the word that has found me is light. An intention to seek light; to feel light; to share light; to lighten the load with a hope that it will lead me to where I want to be. Perhaps in a less prescriptive way.
So I'm starting 2016 in a slightly wounded state but, I think, with cause for cautious optimism.
Going gently and mindfully in these first few days and weeks. With one eye always towards the light.
How about you?